goody-goodies don't get anything
It's just you and me and there's no one around. Feel like I'm hanging by a thread, it's a long way down. I've been trying to breathe but I'm fighting for air. I'm at an all time low with no place to go. But you're always there when everything falls apart.

And it seems like the world's crashing at my feet. You're like me the best when I'm a mess. When I'm my own worst enemy.

Thursday, December 3, 2009
and it's down to one
Ohmygawddd. My blog is dead. DEAD.


Oh boy oh boy...
I can smell freedom already!Four days.
Just FOUR more days.
And I will be back.

Monday, November 16, 2009
i miss you people






<3






Sunday, November 15, 2009
a mixed emotion
Pheww. SPM's two days away.
Just freaking two days away.
I know I have been MIA-ing alot..
Sorry for that.
I've got so much to update, but so little time.
And. Let me warn you.
This post has no purpose at all.

I just need to vent out and talk to someone since my 'other half' cant really talk to me these days because he's too busy with his life, his gf,and everything else.
Yes. I did mention GF as in like GIRL FRIEND.
Too many drastic changes in a very, very short span of time.
Just merely two weeks ago, nothing could bring us apart.
But today, we know we are drifting away slowly from each other.
Why is it so complicated?
I.HAVE.NO.IDEA.

It's like two people are really really in love with each other.
But they cant be together because of too many reasons.
Ironic huh?
I miss him. I really do.
I don't care what are people gonna think about me.
Because only I know what I am going through.
And on top of that. SPM's waiting for me.
The one thing that's gonna decide my entire future.
Ohmygod. What the fuck am I doing here not studying and worrying bout a bastard making out with a *****?- Fill it up. I am tired of cursing.

I dunno why but I smell deja vu.
Oh boy. I have a feeling that something big is gonna happen.
Something heart wrenching.
And I know there much, much more waiting for me in the future.
Tsk tsk tsk.
All I need now is solitude. And HIM.
I told you this post has no purpose. Sorry.



How can a person love two people at the same time?


Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i love you
Things happen for a reason don't they?
You came into my life for a reason.
I loved you for a reason.
As shattered I am.
I will always love you.




I'm your delicate glass flower in a firestorm.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009
something i like


Things happen for a reason.


addiction
Broken-hearted Girl - Beyonce

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl






Wednesday, October 21, 2009
past love


Despite the closed shutters, the heart yearns for an unforgiving life.
A life that the heart's scared to follow yet seeks.
The guilty escapes the heart makes in wondering what love would feel like, makes the soul ache in pain.
To see the true happiness that lies hidden will never be achieved for this soul.
The heart has indeed fallen but never did the mind let it fall conditionlessly.
For you see, life itself is not without conditions.
The repugnant self that thy has become, will never cease.
May thou have a great life with the greater soul that has managed to live out of the deepest scum of hell.



I think I finally understand ;)
Thank you.

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Normality.
That word never exists in the context of my life.


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